*i will never fall in love again in this diminutive place.*
--that was my dictum, let say 4-5 months ago, after being in a crucial situationwhere i almost ruined a relationship and I, in a "he-broke-my-heart-into-pieces"fuss.
t'wasnt that long until i met "karl" who kept on boggling me to have my numberbecause of his friend whom he said has a crush on me. then i deliberately gave it.
then i met the "ACES". and candidly speaking, they kinda reformed my clear-cutlife.
roughly 3 months ago, we got intimate with one of the aces ('m not referring to karl's friend in the upperhead,but another ace).
who is he?
i say, he doesnt exist in the prodigy realm, and he's not even the heartthrob kind of gent.he just have lil looks and a bit ghastly yet rational 'tude, yet i seem to be chopped down in his tangible presence!
few weeks after, we've been hanging out together, and then he courted me. that moment, i was sure i didnt love him. but he was friggin' mild to me and totally diverting to be with!
crap. my dictum just cracked. shattered. i just fell. directly to the graveyard.
initially, i really, really HATE it. falling too fast, too deep-- its my sickness. fatal, incurable.
and I JUST CAN'T STOP IT!!
but then, i gave in. i went to the flow. i admitted my defeat, and accepted it. i stopped trying to stop what i felt.
until we now have a not-so-doomed ENCHANTED tale. =)
Saturday, November 29, 2008
we WERE close.
I MISS YOU. i wish you could hear my heart screeching those words everytime we convene.
yes, irrefutably. i dunno what went through my veins. why am i missing you so badly?now that i already have my knight and we're rigid?
i know what happened between us (beyond our friendship) were all just a game. a stupid, obtuse pastime.but that isnt what i miss. ITS OUR CLOSENESS.
the unending teases, the sharing of our likes and dislikes which we constantly have in common,your "asa ka ron?" messages, the PUKAWanay modes, the singing of songs which we revised and made it silly,the cheats, the whispering during religion class, the sharing of notes, editing pictures on my laptop,your urging mode when it comes to your cousin, the life story telling, our mutual plans in life,the drinking of fresh milk before going to sleep, your calls, the hugs, the walking in the rain,the hatid-sundo genre, the i-got-pissed-off-because-of-this-and-that, the secrets, the revelations,the jealous glow, the comforting modes, the le travellers cafe standbys, the billiard games, the videoke,the struggle for math 11, the stares of the people whenever we're together, your tick offs everytime i drink,the laughter, the tears, blah..blah..blah..
looking back on those points, it gives me a reason to hate myself for riding in with the game.we had the sweetest friendship juice, but we took a risk. a hazardous risk, and ended up a prejudiced game.
i admit, our intimacy gave color to my life here in this pristine place. im not expecting nor hoping to have ourcloseness back in a snap. but i just yearn for our friendship to be back.
those days are truly unforgettable. YOU are remarkable.
yes, irrefutably. i dunno what went through my veins. why am i missing you so badly?now that i already have my knight and we're rigid?
i know what happened between us (beyond our friendship) were all just a game. a stupid, obtuse pastime.but that isnt what i miss. ITS OUR CLOSENESS.
the unending teases, the sharing of our likes and dislikes which we constantly have in common,your "asa ka ron?" messages, the PUKAWanay modes, the singing of songs which we revised and made it silly,the cheats, the whispering during religion class, the sharing of notes, editing pictures on my laptop,your urging mode when it comes to your cousin, the life story telling, our mutual plans in life,the drinking of fresh milk before going to sleep, your calls, the hugs, the walking in the rain,the hatid-sundo genre, the i-got-pissed-off-because-of-this-and-that, the secrets, the revelations,the jealous glow, the comforting modes, the le travellers cafe standbys, the billiard games, the videoke,the struggle for math 11, the stares of the people whenever we're together, your tick offs everytime i drink,the laughter, the tears, blah..blah..blah..
looking back on those points, it gives me a reason to hate myself for riding in with the game.we had the sweetest friendship juice, but we took a risk. a hazardous risk, and ended up a prejudiced game.
i admit, our intimacy gave color to my life here in this pristine place. im not expecting nor hoping to have ourcloseness back in a snap. but i just yearn for our friendship to be back.
those days are truly unforgettable. YOU are remarkable.
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